I’ve often thought that I’ve been in the right place, at the right time in my career. I’ve been willing and able to take opportunities when they’ve been available and I’ve been in a position to put myself forward for training, continuing professional development and step-up when I’ve been asked if I can do something.
I've rarely said no when I've been asked if I want to do something or go somewhere, hence Cambodia with 17 student nurses 2 1/2 years ago!

I’ve also been well supported by colleagues and managers who have encouraged and highlighted some of these opportunities for me. Shortly after qualifying I was in a role where I struggled and found personal challenges in the environment. When I handed my notice in a senior colleague told me, you’ll be back, you’ll be the director of nursing one day. I’d been qualified less than two years and was really surprised to hear that, I’d met our nurse director but at that time I had no real understanding of the role and whether that would be something I would want for me.
Feeling nostalgic
It is 20 years this month since I started my nurse training, I went to my local university, Teesside and all of my placements were a maximum 40 minutes away. I didn’t drive then, I was really lucky to have no more than two bus journeys and usually I was able to find some kind hearted person in the placement who would take pity on me and we’d manage to organise a lift situation.
I was fairly young and quite inexperienced, I’d worked in a pub and McDonalds while I was doing my A levels, most recruiting officers will tell you these are quite good signs for the potential of a student nurse (managing crowds, prioritising, clean as you go, dealing with conflict, understanding the need for flow and partnership working amongst other things, basic first aid, attending to nutrition, hydration, elimination etc.) but sometimes I wonder how I became a learning disability nurse at all! I had little to no experience of being with people with learning disabilities and I was really naive.
However, I have never looked back, I love my job, I cherish the opportunities I have to be with people with learning disabilities, I value my colleagues, our partners and can deal with the conflict and challenge that life in the public sector in 2020 presents us with. I have worked with amazing people who have inspired and supported me and made me want to be the best I can be. I have had, and continue to be around inspirational role models. Those who I consider to be the best of people who are kind, caring and have strong values, who choose to do the right thing and encourage excellence in others through challenge, direction, leadership and presence.
As a student nurse I was hugely influenced by two strong women who were leaders in their field and were deeply compassionate, capable communicators, people who made others feel at ease and comfortable to say how they felt and what they wanted in a situation. These experienced nurses and leaders made others feel safe. They were non-threatening and open to challenge and able to influence others to aspire to be them. These mentors and colleagues have shaped the nurse that I have become and created conditions that allowed me to test out the clinician and leader that I wanted to be.
I am indebted to the nurse leaders I have had who have helped me carve out my role and understand the practitioner I am.
Last year I wrote to one of these nurses (friend, colleague, mentor) and thanked her for helping me become who I am today, I told her how I felt that the nurturing and support she gave me early in my career, helping me learn from and reflect on mistakes, putting me in challenging situations (which I often moaned about and rarely thanked her for) and allowing me to grow in the safety of a team that wanted me to do my best had helped me become the confident and capable, compassionate nurse that I am today.
I am so proud to be a learning disability nurse and in a leadership role where I can nurture and enable others to realise their dreams and do the best for the people who use our services everyday... Did I tell you how lucky I am?


